Some of you are already familiar with my story but most of you are not. I kept it secret, until now. It is remarkable so I finally decided to open up, step up and speak up. This is the first time I share it. It has been a difficult decision. It felt so scary to let go of the image others have of me and speak openly about things that are so personal. Then I realised that when your worst fears become your reality, you have nothing to fear anymore, you become fearless and invincible. So, here we go…

I was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic breast cancer in September 2018 by a doctor in Poland while on holiday there visiting my mum with my then 5-year-old boy. The doctor said I had weeks to live, cancer was so advanced that even surgery was out of the question.

It was very difficult and traumatic but I’ve decided not to take into consideration the opinion about my life span from this doctor or anyone else for that matter. After all we are all going to die one day and there is no one who can predict your time. My life is my life and only I can decide how to live it, who and what to believe and how to act.

So here I am, 2 years later telling you my story.

I didn’t want to believe I had breast cancer, it felt shocking, embarrassing, even shameful. There is so much fear and dogma around cancer. I did not want to be judged and seen by others through the lens of a dis-ease. I thought that I did everything right. Being vegetarian for over 25 years, practicing and teaching yoga, being spiritual, advocating and implementing conscious healthy lifestyle, wholefood organic diet, regular detoxification and natural body care, living by the ocean, having healthy pregnancy, natural home birth of my son and breastfeeding for over 3 years…how could this happen to me?

But I was overlooking very important aspects of my life. Extended postnatal depression, stress and shock of falling apart relationship with the father of my son, which was stained with lies and betrayal, toxic emotions, abuse and unresolved traumas… All this combined, lead me to lack of self-worth and self-love resulting in lack of self-care on a deeper core level. Together with sleep deprivation, loneliness, exhaustion and sheer relentlessness of single parenting, topped up with a strong accidental physical impact to my milk filled breast, resulted in injury and toxicity which began to accumulate and eventually resulted in breast cancer.

My body was sending messages of distress, lack of equilibrium and desperate need for support. It was screaming for attention because I pretended not to hear it when it was whispering to me gently to start with.

My amazing soul sister, Kwali has been on this journey with me from the very beginning and every step of the way. She was the first person I told about the lump in my right breast after I was trying to ignore it for 2 years. Yes, deep inside I knew what was going on but I didn’t want to acknowledge it, I didn’t want my life to change, I was so scared. Everyday life was so hectic and exhausting that I didn’t know how stop and turn it around. I didn’t know how to ask for help. I thought I was on top of it, that somehow, if I pretend it was not there it would just dissolve away like a bad dream, without me having to do any conscious work. I was in denial and fallen into trap of fake positive thinking, instead of facing my reality and looking for solutions. I kept it secret. In reality, deep inside I was terrified but I didn’t want to admit it even to myself.

So, I just kept going with my everyday busy hectic life as if nothing happened while cancer kept progressing.

When I finally came out with it, Kwali urged me to get it checked and when I did, she was the first person I called to share the hard news. She has been of invaluable support ever since, staying close in the darkest of times. Holding my hand, believing in me and flying my flag no matter what. I joined her in dreaming into existence the Elemental Healing Temple project.

After the diagnosis I realised that if I wanted to live, things had to change. Even though it was a very had decision to make as a mother, I’ve chosen to leave my little son with my wonderful mum in Poland and get back home to UK to rest and search deep within for the right answers regarding my next steps. I knew that if I didn’t stop what I was doing and act fast I would simply die, it was the last call to change. It was time to look truth straight in the eyes, to look into my own eyes and deep into my soul. It was time for a radical transformation.

I decided to truly embrace the role of my emotions and past traumas in the development of the dis-ease. I realised how exhausted I’ve been and how broken-hearted and abandoned I felt at the betrayal from the man I loved. I saw how lost I got in the everyday struggle, how I forgot about myself, about self-love and self-care, about joy and true well-being. How I allowed depression and sadness into my life and how toxic my thoughts and emotions had become. I was pouring from an empty cup living in constant fight or flight state.

I decided that it was time to find a way to empower myself and stand in my truth fearlessly, time to save my life and be the loving, giving, healthy, vibrant person and caring mother I knew myself to be. It was time to exchange fear for love and heal myself and my life on all levels.

When I came back to the UK, I went to local hospital for further testing which showed metastasis to the lymph nodes, to the bones, especially to my spine and hips, and to my lungs with right lung partially collapsed. The type of cancer was diagnosed as estrogen and progesterone positive. (ER+, PR+, HER-). It was shocking, I did not expect such an advanced stage of the dis-ease.

As an immediate band aid solution, I chose hormone suppression therapy which caused me to have early menopause. It has been and still is a very difficult treatment with many side effects, sending me into a full-blown menopause within a month at age 44.

I started my research into alternative and holistic cancer treatments as soon as I could, straight after the diagnosis. I decided that truly integrative holistic approach is the direction in which I wanted to go. I chose to be open to and embrace all treatments that work without causing too much toxic damage to the body-mind system while healing the whole person with cancer, and not just the cancer itself.

I began my research diving deep into The Truth About Cancer documentary series which were being aired at the time in perfect synchronicity with what was happening in my life. The inspiring couple behind these series travel around the world searching for science-backed successful therapies for cancer. They seek out legitimate doctors, specialists, treatment centres and clinics who create and use medically proven cancer protocols which actually work. They are also dedicated to uncovering the truth about why such treatments are suppressed and they are bravely shinning bright light on big pharma and its multi-million cancer business.

World renowned Hope4Cancer treatment centre in Mexico and work of Dr Tony Jimenez stood out for me straight away. His holistic 7 principles approach to healing cancer spoke to my mind and heart and resonated deeply with my own principles and beliefs regarding life, health and healing.

The results of Dr Tony Jimenez’s approach in treating and managing cancer and many patient’s online testimonials were very reassuring. Straight away, I started following his advice which I accessed through his website, his book, free documentaries, interviews and webinars. I began intensive health protocol which I have been adhering to rigorously daily. I have been following Dr Tony’s approach and advice diligently as much as I can in a home setting ever since.

The 7 Key Principles of Cancer Therapy:

1.     Non-toxic cancer therapies

2.     Immunomodulation

3.     Full spectrum nutrition

4.     Detoxification

5.     Oxygenation

6.     Restore microbiome

7.     Emotional and spiritual healing

Dr Tony Jimenez has been working in oncology for the past 30 years, he founded Hope4Cancer treatment centres 20 years ago. He continues to expand his knowledge and practice and offers some of the most comprehensive and advanced integrative treatments for cancer in the world. In his two treatment centres he is the Chief Medical Officer of a team of over 20 doctors of diverse specialisations. He is a pioneer who blazes the trail in alternative cancer treatments promoting functional and integrative medicine. His holistic healing approach is highly successful in working with patients in advanced stages of cancer, at 92% of all admissions. The doctors working there have extensive knowledge, experience and remarkable results in treating particularly breast cancer which is a challenge experienced by majority of their patients. Some of the treatments which are very safe and effective are so cutting edge that have not yet been approved in Europe, UK or USA, both clinics are based in Mexico.

I have already experienced some great success while implementing this integrated holistic approach to cancer. The initial very large tumour in my breast completely healed and disappeared without surgery. Lymphedemas in my arm and belly drained and dissolved, skin metastasis healed, peripheral neuropathy in my arms and legs reversed. My thyroid went from hypothyroidism back to normal without hormonal medications. I weaned off prescription opioid pain relief. Now I’m ready to take my healing further and deeper. This time I need some help to do that and that’s why I have decided to do a fundraiser.

At the moment the dis-ease is advanced and progressing in my bones. Right at the beginning of the lock-down 3 vertebrae in my upper spine fractured. I was in excruciating pain and couldn’t move. I decided to go for radiotherapy treatment. It was really tough but it worked well. I made sure to apply integrative protocol throughout the treatment to minimise the side effects of radiation, I was detoxing daily and resting. Radiotherapy was prescribed for me only on palliative bases as it can’t be used often on the spine in order to protect the spinal cord from damage.

I’ve been working with conventional oncology team in local NHS funded hospital in Margate and integrative oncologist in London Hospital of Integrative Medicine which is only partly funded. At this point standard free conventional breast cancer protocol, which is one fits all approach, doesn’t offer any effective treatment for me. I’m still on hormone suppression programme but that’s all they can offer and it is also only on palliative bases. At the moment I’m on the third line hormonal therapy and doctors think I have developed resistance to it. It’s kind of end of the line with them, as conventional medicine doesn’t provide any real cure for cancer with their cut, burn, poison approach.

In combination with the conventional route, I have been continuously implementing alternative cancer treatments, diet, herbs and supplements based on my personal extensive research and greatly influenced by Hope4Cancer 7 Key Principles. I’ve been doing this all by myself and mostly in-home setting. I believe that thanks to this holistic integrative approach and to deciding to refuse chemotherapy, which doesn’t offer any significant promise of healing anyway, I’m still alive and relatively well. All my vital organs are healthy and in great working condition which is a great blessing.

Now, I’ve arrived at the point, where I need further professional medical guidance and experience of doctors and clinicians who can revise my protocol and give me clear direction. I can’t do it by myself any more. It’s too much and too hard. I need team of professionals who know well what they are doing in relation to integrative cancer treatment which embraces and treats the whole person, rather than just the dis-ease. Unfortunately, conventional free health care doesn’t embrace this concept and doesn’t offer any solutions for me anymore. This doesn’t mean that there are no solutions, there are effective solutions being implemented, they are just outside the paradigm of conventional medicine.

It’s been 2 years since the diagnosis and I have devoted this time to research, healing and personal development – body, mind, heart and soul. Saving my life and healing myself from cancer became a full-time job.

I miss all the things I have always loved doing, travelling, playing with my son Arjuna, running, swimming, dancing, practising and teaching Yoga. Now I truly appreciate the value of good health. Without it, everyday stuff we often take for granted turns into impossible tasks. Health is wealth, I truly know the meaning of it now. I understand the value of being comfortable in my body, of feeling energised, effortless and pain free; of enjoying restful sleep and healthy appetite. Sometimes you need to lose something to truly appreciate it.

I have learned to meditate deeply, to live in the moment, to trust and truly surrender to the divine, to let go of the need to control, knowing that God will reveal the next step as I walk my path with love, faith and integrity.

I’m grateful for meditation, which I can practice regardless of circumstances. I’ve been able to dive really deep into this profound practice of meaningful connection with the Great Spirit. It has literally been a life and sanity saver for me in the most challenging of times.

I believe we are, in a big part, the creators of our life, of our state of health and wellbeing or dis-ease. I believe that I have greatly contributed to creating the cancer which I’m experiencing at the moment, not consciously of course but nevertheless. In line with epigenetics, the way I was responding to what was happening in my life created a perfect terrain for cancer to develop. No blame game or playing victim. It feels very empowering actually, it means that if I created it on some level then I can also uncreate it and reverse it. I have decided to work on myself, fully accept responsibility for my journey and blaze my own trail fearlessly with a realisation that vibrant health is my birth right.

It feels like everything I have been doing for the past 2 years have been preparing me for the treatment at Hope4Cancer. I have been detoxing my body, mind and emotions, nourishing and building myself up with supplements, herbs and mind-body techniques. Going for a treatment which would take all my efforts further and deeper feels like the next logical step. I would still continue all my support therapies at home but it is necessary now to also include the core therapies offered directly in the treatment centre. Both, support and core therapies work together in synergy to create deep healing effects on the whole mind-body system.

I have just recently understood that asking for help is not a sign of weakness but instead it is a sign of courage. Asking for help implies trust in others and sense of belonging to the tribe of loving, caring, kind people, it reflects self-love and affirms self-worth. Sharing my story with the world has been a difficult decision for me, yet it is a kind of relief as I kept it all secret far too long. It feels empowering to stand in my truth and be vulnerable and real without the fear of judgement, without any concern of what others my think about me. It feels liberating not having to pretend any more. It is a place of surrender.

I decided to go ahead with this fundraiser and finally share my powerful journey because I believe that I can get well but I need help along the way. It is not a desperate attempt at saving my life but a necessary next step in the evolution of my healing protocol and my arrival at vibrant health. It is not done in panic and fear but in faith and knowledge cultivated as a result of extensive research and self-reflection as to what is best for me at this moment. I want you to believe in me, not feel sorry for me. I want you to be inspired by me, not pity me. I hope you can see me as a person and not as a dis-ease.

I hope that my journey will inspire people to realise that cancer is not a death sentence. It can become an opportunity to learn, to look deep within, to look all around and change your life for the better. And by changing your life, you are changing lives of others too.

My objective regarding this treatment is, first to stop any further progression of the dis-ease and then to begin to reverse it, hopefully arriving at full remission. I believe in it and my belief is backed up by science, research and testimonials of those who completed this journey before me. And if one person can do it then anyone can do it.

I have already had initial free phone consultations with the doctors at Hope4Cancer. Based on that and my recent tests and scans results from my local hospital, I have received a personalised Treatment Plan. As soon as I can raise the funds, I can book treatment dates and flights.

The goal of this appeal is to raise £80.000, which will cover:

Initial individualised 21 days comprehensive intensive treatment on inpatient bases in Hope4Cancer treatment centre in Tijuana, Mexico, implementing all the 7 Key Principles of Cancer Therapy daily, full board all-inclusive inpatient stay at the clinic with personalised nutrition plan.
Continued 1 year follow up, inclusive of online/phone support, in person follow ups, doctor consultations, reassessments, supplements and home core treatment devices to take back with me.
Cost of returning to the clinic for 2 in person reassessments, first after 6 months, second after a year from the initial treatment.
Flights to Mexico for myself and Kwali who will be my support and companion for the journey and while undertaking the rigorous demanding treatment, the treatment agreement allows for one companion who will receive full board stay at the clinic sharing a room with me.
I have not been able to work for the past 2 years. Being a Yoga teacher, for me, my lungs and spine are my most important tools. So, I have been depending financially on health benefits. It is not much considering that to truly heal I need to invest time and money into therapies, treatments, organic food and good quality supplements. Paying for effective private treatment such as that offered by Hope4Cancer would not be possible without this fundraiser.

In my situation and in today’s world, to save my life I need effective treatment and money to pay for it right now. It’s hard for me to ask for help, it’s always been, but now it’s time to change, if not now, then when?

I deeply appreciate your help and your time. All help is welcome, whether you can support this radical adventure in health financially or simply spread the word and help us get more people involved. It all matters in helping me turn my life around and make it possible for this brave dream come true. Thank you for your contribution and for choosing to share this journey with me in some way.

Namaste.